January 14, 2014


Today, is a sad day in the apartment. Our good friend from high school lost his battle with leukemia. Brian was the strongest boy in our grade, school, and even community. People who didn't know him looked up to him and knew of his goodness. He accomplished so many things that our community saluted him for, he was a three time state champion wrestler, he lead our football team to a state title, he took state in the discus throw, he had a scholarship to SUU to play football, he had a mission call to Uruguay, he was always the happiest person in the halls, he was quiet but he was a beacon of light for all those around him. When he was diagnosed with acute myelogenous leukemia in October of 2012, it was if our whole community was in the battle along with him. Countless prayers and tears were shed in honor of him, and he is worth every ounce of that love that was given to him.

Brian will never be forgotten, his example of love and courage will live in the hearts of those who knew him, forever.

//One of my favorite memories of Brian is he gave me two black eyes..hahaha We were at a party at a friends house, being the cool high school kids we were, we had a strobe light going and throwing around a big exercise ball....because what else were we supposed to do? here comes the good part. The ball was thrown over by where Brian and I were, Brian bent over to pick it up and because I was blinded by the flashing lights I too, bent over to pick it up. Before I knew it, Brian's head was slamming into my nose. I had never seen a boy feel so bad in his life, he made sure I was okay and never stopped saying how sorry he was. I acted tough because I didn't want him to feel worse, but I went home and cried and cried. He has a thick skull, see what I mean by strongest boy?
For the next week or so I had a swollen nose and two black eyes. I looked like an avatar in the sense that I had no bridge on my nose. 

Finding peace in the loss of a loved on is so personal. It is a process that cannot be sped up or slowed down. We all just need time to hurt and time to heal.
For me, I like to think of the happy times and happy memories I had with Brian. I try to remember him just like he was in his prime, when he was happiest, when he was without pain and fear for his life.
I also think music is a huge mood pick me up, I tend to listen to music that fits my mood. Today has been filled with hymns and peaceful music.
Today although it is filled with heartache, so many people are expressing their love for Brian and his family on social media, many newspapers are publishing articles about him. I have loved reading all these beautiful things about his life.
The knowledge of the gospel brings me peace, I know Brian is pain free today. He is in his perfect state, he is with our Heavenly Father. Brian was needed by our Heavenly Father for a reason we will never know, but we can know and trust in the plan.

Brian was one of the lucky ones, blessed with athletic abilities beyond my comprehension and also blessed with humility. Not many athletes can have that said about them, but Brian was all that and more. Brian had THE biggest heart and can-do attitude. His smile was one of the greatest, he was genuine and compassionate. I have no doubt that Brian is serving his mission faithfully and completely, just somewhere a little different.

Brian is a hero and a champion

xox al

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